Writing can change the way you think

I start writing since I was 10, I think. I created my first blog Respiro de Vida in 2009. The only difference is that it was written in Spanish. With this new blog Faked expectations, I want to explore writing a blog but in English. I was doing exercises when this idea came up into my head. And I thought: Why not?

My biggest fear was in regards of grammar which I consider is not too bad but I am aware that I need to get more practice though. One month ago, I got a "C+" on a paper due to grammar and APA style. I felt so frustrated that I promised to do something about it. I did not want that to affect my grade point average and the more important I did not want to think that I was not good enough for studying a Pre-Masters degree.

Before I started studying my Pre-Masters in the Department of Family Social Sciences I had a hard time while trying to meet the English criteria requirement to be accepted as a graduate student at University of Manitoba. I needed to pass the TOEFL exam with at least 80 points in order to apply for studying a Masters degree. Guess what? The first time I took it, I only had 69. I thought I would not be able to do it. There are still missing too much points. However, after studying four months in an English institution I felt more prepared and confident for taking the TOEFL again.

I felt desesperated while waiting for the exam results. I have never had too much patience when waiting for something. Suddenly, I received an email which said that my score was available to check it online. I had pressure on my head and my fingertips were on the top of my nails (I do that when I feel anxious). I was having so many expectations about this new score. I needed at least 80. Suddenly, I saw it: 73 points. I felt dissapointed. And mad. And depressed.

It took me a long way to decide what was going to be the next step. I had two choices: take the exam again or register in the AEPUCE program for three months. This is a three-month intensive course which prepares students to get into university. In case I chose the second option, I did not have to write the exam again but I needed to pass this program with at least 65% for being accepted as a graduate student.

After writing the TOEFL exam one more time(this was the third time)and failed again, I finally realized that the test was not an option for me anymore. So I decided to take the AEPUCE program. Those three months were super-high-intensive but I felt proud at the end. I finished this program with 85%. I learnt very good grammar skills. I improved my speaking and writing considerably. And the more important I met beautiful people from different parts of the world who taught me a lot about life, culture, love and relationships.

I have never been very good at exams, I rather prefer writing papers/assignments/essays. I love writing. Writing is the best way of expression to me: I can edit my own thoughts and analyze my own feelings. And the more I organized them, I understand myself as well. I learn from my experience and see my past in a different way. The truth is the more you learn the more you realize how much you did not know at first place.